“Energy is eternal delight.” - William Blake

It’s amazing to me just HOW much better I FEEL this week than I felt last week. I feel almost elated. Light, giddy, easy-going. Not stressed out. Excited about things to come. Excited in general. Full of energy. Walking down the sidewalk in Hillcrest today at lunch, I caught myself humming through a smile, sighing vocally like a woman being pleasured. A perfect day, with no particular reason for it to be other than that’s just the way it feels.

How lovely I feel. How beautiful and vibrant. As I encountered people on the street and smiled at them, sour faces suddenly beamed in response. I felt like I was zapping them with some kind of happy power, as if by seeing my bliss, they couldn’t help but feel warm and fuzzy on some level. Of course, I may be projecting, but I doubt it. I know how to read people, and these strangers today picked up on my mood and responded in kind. They couldn’t help themselves.

Tonight I have my first Economics class, and then two weeks off of school! Even though I’ll be busy and working, and even though my calendar is filled to the rim, this will feel like I’m on vacation. Today, I feel like I’m on track. Sure, I sacrificed the quality of my homework to do a project for the HMFIC, but I’m okay with that. It was nice to have a bite to eat with Curious G, and it was nice to shut it all off and get some comfy sleep.

Today, I’m experiencing how good life can be. How good life IS.

How glorious it IS to be ME.

-Barbarella

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