ďFall down seven times, stand up eight.Ē - Japanese Proverb
Today I run my world. Today, I made people smile. Iím looking forward to the weekend, busy as I am. Things are okay. My choices are good. My life is good.
This morning, one of my sisters asked me, ďBarb, youíre so busy! What are you doing for yourself ??Ē I replied, ďJane, donít you get it? This IS for me! Iím going to school for ME. Iím working hard for ME. This hard work should not be mistaken for something that is harmful to me. The only person benefitting from my lack of free time is ME, for now, and in the long-term. So donít worry, sis, because Iím doing fine. Every time I learn something I feel better about myself. Every time I accomplish something at work, I feel my sense of self-worth strengthen. These are good things.Ē
Then, of course, I reminded her that I just had a wonderful vacation with the man I love, which was a dreamy escape from my usual monotony. Iím doing more for myself than I think I ever have before. Thatís what self-love can do for a person.
Tonight Iím going to Ronaldoís for a bit, and I will be seeing the birthday girl, Spider Monkey! Good, I can give her the present I have for her, as I probably wonít make it to the party tomorrow night. Tomorrow, itís breakfast with M.s.ís cousin, meeting up with his director friend at Photo L.A., along with a publisher (weíre GOING to get this book done for you, baby!), among other people and contacts. Then, weíll meeting up with J&S - he, a producer, she, a hairstylist to the stars, and both of them, long-time dear friends of my family who are excited to meet My man.
Sunday, the editor from the Union Tribuneís Night & Day is supposed to come to the gallery to do a story on us (Iím REALLY working those connections!), and sometime after that Iíll write a paper for school. Yup, Iíve got my work cut out for me.
And I will rise to the occasion. And I will shine.