ďI ought to go upright and vital, and speak the rude truth in all waysÖ your goodness must have some edge to it Ė else it is none.Ē Ė Emerson
Thank you, Jacob, for the new Emerson quote! Itís true, you know. He is my friend through the ages. Iíve got big plans today. It all starts with getting out of bed and actually putting some clothes on, but weíre not quite at that point yet. However, once I get my ass out of the ridiculously comfortable bed (I swear, my little iBook is the best purchase I ever made), I will get ready for my sisterís arrival. She is coming over early so we can get my car to the repair station. Poor Barbmobile, her brakes are as worn and tired as her paint job, but weíll fix Ďer up like new!
Things continue to get interesting. Every time I doubt myself, every time I wonder at my worth and my abilities, I receive either a phone call or an email from someone thanking me for simply being myself . This is a humbling thing, you know. I think, if only they knew, if only they could see my doubts, my fears, my angst. But then I remember, they do. Here. Iím telling you right now. I have doubts, and fears, and angst. Iím more neurotic and obsessive than Jack Nicholsonís character in As Good As It Gets . And what Iím realizing, is that thatís OKAY.
This is my truth. It can be rude. It can be good. But always, it is me. And I refuse to allow my truth to be compromised for the sake of those who canít handle it, and for the sake of those who can. Now itís time to get my ass out of bed and on with my day!